Being Seen

I'm going to talk about Being Seen and the Planet Saver archetype that I've created, and I allow to rule me.

I have a lifelong and urgent need to Be Seen by the world, as saving it. Or saving the poor. Or helping victims I will never need to meet. 

I do not want to do any of things that must be done to save any of it. I do not care about the world, the poor, or war victims.

What I care about is Being Seen to be saving the world.

Being seen.

By Being Seen, I mean I want people to watch me as I pretend to save the world. I want the glory that I might be able to steal by Being Seen. Maybe even a seat on the right hand side of God.

A kind of psychic rent seeking.

I am not conscious of myself doing this. But it does drive everything I do. Everything.

This Being Seen, is my world. I created it. It belongs to me. I created this image of the world where I'm seen to be saving it.

It's a cosy and precious place for me to live. I will guard it with my life. And I will make sacrifices of others as I exploit them, while masquerading as their saviour, in my primary desire of Being Seen. As I satiate my greed for Being Seen.

I do not care about anything else, except Being Seen. Being Seen is worth more than any wealth and power can bring. And my huge ego is tiny in comparison, to Being Seen.

I must beware though. When someone comes along and shines a light on my unconscious delusion of Being Seen, I am compelled to pick from one of the following 2 choices.

1. I suddenly recognise the grotesquely selfish and ignorant world of Being Seen, I've created and choose to live in for what it is, and reject it immediately, forever
2. or, I double down and proceed, to Be Seen, at an even deeper and more obscene level

This will not be a conscious activity. But I will act one way or the other, when a light is shone on me.

99% of people will double down. It's such a cosy place to be. This is the world that in general we call social organisation and civilisation. Let's focus on society on the whole, as an unconscious collective, all together acting to Be Seen as a first duty.

Being Seen

If I can take option 1) and manage to go over the frontier and cross the forbidden zone, there is no special victory or reward for me. There are no guarantees. But to do so will allow me to see myself as wanting to Be Seen. And I will know. I'll become conscious of the disgraceful world I created. What I'll do with that, God only knows?

This potential change of mind, from the deep, is not something a teacher or guru can teach me about. I cannot learn this or buy it. It won't come by praying, giving charity or being virtuous.

It's a direct choice. Made in the depths of my psyche. Which I make. Only I can make it. No one can help me. There is no teaching necessary. I'll make one choice or the other, deliberately and freely. I will own it. No one and no knowledge can help or guide me. 

Just because it is unconscious activity does not make it any less all mine and absolutely my a free choice.

Being Seen. 

When I stride about, proud of Being Seen, I'm exploiting the rest of the world, so that I can Be Seen. That is all. The exploitation and damage I do to the world is the food of Being Seen. This is the food of exploitation. 

Being Seen is like an animal that can never be satisfied.

I, as a planet saver never care about the world, the poor, the victims in a far away land. I only care about Being Seen.

Being Seen.